imadudette

how i wish that i could get lost some place and never return to reality, waste away and dream all day, and to forget all bad memoirs. i didn't get what i wanted since 1st. year and there is a reason for that, but i can't help asking myself why?! oh well, i'm kinda over it already but, still depressed.. more opportunites must be out there and i am not dwelling on that let down.. may chance pa naman :)
i can't wait for the da vinci code movie! i'm really looking forward to watch it.. actually, i'm planning to watch a lot of movies next year.. narnia too! spending time at the beach helped me sort out my thoughts, and hopefully i know what to do, and how to handle certain stuff... honestly, i want to study in another country, i have no idea why.. eventually, we are moving, so why not start na? these are the kind of thoughts that i hate thinking about, a college to go to, a job that i really want, how to earn money and have a stable life.. etc. reasons why i really don't want to grow-up, yet. crazy mixed-up thoughts again. really irritating. :\ Add on our projects and hectic schoolwork.. darnnnn.... it's like rush hour 24/7. plus my having to pay for something i didn't loose, total piss off! hate it. i want to get lost in paris. take pictures. adore paintings. waste away.
hope next year will be a better year for me i want to start all over if it's possible. i feel so helpless, why why why????????????????
good thing is though, i'm into reading again :) i find someone weird nowadays, nakakainis.. haha, very disturbing.
i wonder where sam is at this very moment, hmmm (?) i miss training, i am so fat na.. christmas break and it's power to make me eat all day... gulliver's corn was so iressistable.. fat fat fat.. hmph.. i will start my diet again, no rice. haha.. sweets? ok, i'll TRY. my hair grows too fast.. weird...
i want to buy brown, maroon, and green things.. and pass admu, :) i can't stick to one topic, everything i can think off pops out, and i start typing.. haha.
oohh yesterday we were in galle, then went to gh.. not na tiendesitas.. next time .. it's fun to irritate someone who is currently in the mountains haha. away from the metro.. wahaha.. :D and today, i have no idea what to do and where to go.